artist's soul

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Digital

Artist Notes

© 2012 RC deWinter ~ All Rights Reserved __________________________________________________________________________________ artist’s soul __________________________________________________________________________________ sitting here watching evening’s curtain fall, my thoughts turn far inward. i brood on wornout clichés: why am i here? what is my purpose? __________________________________________________________________________________ there are no answers to these questions that haunt me, at least none that have been revealed to me. i ask them again and again, however, because by all rights i should have been dead, mangled and bloody, two years ago on the highway. yet here i am, walking and talking, but without a clue as to why i’m alive when the person i loved most is not. __________________________________________________________________________________ on sunny days, when things are going right, i know who i am, anyway. i have settled into the person i was born to be and am happy, for the most, with what i see when i examine myself in the mirror of my heart. some people don’t get me, they see a jumble of contradictions, but i know i'm only mysterious to those who refuse to see with the heart. but the artist has a restless soul – at least this artist does. i question and i fight the universe, even when my mind says don’t – don’t do it – and it’s almost always painful. but strange moontides tug at me, pulling me into those deep waters where unfinished business lurks. __________________________________________________________________________________ it can’t be helped, even when the me i know knows better. it’s a curse and yet a gift, for when i can tread those waters calmly i emerge in wisdom, even when the gaining of it’s cost me dearly. __________________________________________________________________________________ i am what i am. i am who i am. i am not unknowable unless you refuse to look beyond what your mundane senses show you. look with your heart, if you still have one, and you will know me. ~ © 2012 RC deWinter